Thursday, May 28, 2009

Eternity...


I miss him.
Everyday.
I look around me and everything reminds me of him.
And although it is painful, I wouldn't trade it for anything.
That's how much he was entwined in my Life.
It's crazy how much changes in the blink of an eye.
I, who never gave marriage a thought, fell for a Man.
Fell so deeply and so truly.
I felt I was created to marry him.
To make him happy.
I accepted my fate willingly.
I ran to it with open arms.
But now I feel unsettled, uncertain, unbalanced...
a whole lot of "un"s.
Luckily, my Boo gave me a wonderful gift, knowledge.
It is because of this knowledge I feel steady.
May 23, 2009
The day I breathed.
There I stood, in my Sherbet colored dress,
holding my bouquet of white Spider mums,
on the Temple steps, surrounded by those who love me,
knowing that he and I are Forever.
It was perfect.
Bittersweet and perfect.
Bitter because he wasn't there, holding my hand, making a funny face at me
and Sweet... because he was there, probably making a funny face at me.
Perfect because he and I are now Timeless, Forever, Eternal.
This is a Truth that holds all the molecules that make up Liz together.
A certain Future ahead.
A poignant Past behind.
A wobbly Present at best.
But I am here, albeit reluctantly.
Breathing.
Eyes ahead.
Come what may.

4 comments:

Lola....L..O..L..A....lo--oh--luh! said...

I have thought about you so much during the last few days.
I was so happy when I heard that you were going to be sealed, and sad that I couldn't be there.
You are amazingly strong! I am thrilled that you two will share eternity....which is much longer than this short time.
Bug hug!!

Nicole said...

You are beautiful! Inside and out. I can't believe how blessed I am to have you as my friend.

Allyson & Jere said...

You make me cry. What a beautiful, beautiful and amazing post. I am SO happy for you that you were able to be sealed to your precious man. I hope that that gives you much peace in the years to come.

Jamie said...

Liz you are truly amazing.i love reading your words! im so happy for you that you and Matt are sealed together forever! how blessed we are to have the knowledge of the gospel! you are a great example and inspiration to me. i love you i hope to see ya soon!